Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Heart of the Matter

My favorite song by Don Henley. I was reading a commentary on this song on the Don Henley Song Blog on L&M's Fastlane (the best place to go for all things Eagles). I guess this song means so much to me because of my own lost love. It's been 38 years since we broke up. We dated for 2 years and were engaged for 2 years. He was ready to get married and start a family but I was just not quite ready. I wanted to wait a while longer and he couldn't accept that. The last time I saw him was in February of 1991. He came to visit my parents and asked to see me. I was living next door with my husband and 3 boys. Seeing him again made me realize just how much I missed him and still care so deeply for him. He lives in Florida with his wife and 2 sons. I don't know what he does for a living but, knowing him, I believe he could be successful at anything he sets his mind to. I truly hope he is happy. There is rarely a day that goes by that I don't think of him and what a fool I was to let him go. To quote another Henley song, "If you find somebody to love in this world you'd better hang on tooth and nail..." (New York Minute - Don Henley, Danny Kortchmar, Jai Winding)

Heart of the Matter - Mike Campbell, Don Henley, JD Souther

I got the call today that I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old, true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you'd found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck and the struggles we went through
And how I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment and beg for something more?

I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again

I've been tryin' to get down
To the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about
Forgiveness, forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

Oh, these times are so uncertain; there's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness; how can love survive
In such a graceless age?
The trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Oh, pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work I put between us - you know, it doesn't keep me warm

I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
And the more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I'd figured out
I have to learn again

I've been trying to get down
To the heart of the matter
But everything changes
And my friends seem to scatter
But I think it's about
Forgiveness, forgiveness
Even if, even if, you don't love me anymore

There are people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down; you know, they hurt your pride
You better put it all behind you, baby, 'cause life goes on
You keep carryin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside, baby

I've been trying to get down
To the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about
Forgiveness, forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me...

I've been tryin' to get down
To the heart of the matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about
Forgiveness, forgiveness
Even if, even if, you don't love me...

(Forgiveness)
Yeah (Forgiveness
Baby(Forgiveness)
Oh (Forgiveness)
Ah, yeah (Forgiveness)
Ooh (Forgiveness)
Even if you don't love me anymore

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

From reading this, it dont sound like you loved each other at all. If he truly loved you, he would have bought you white go-go boots, and you would have worn a mini-skirt with it. You would have sat for hours on the couch kissing him (does mom and dad read this?). You would have worn a cute little navy dress for him, if he was in the Navy, that is. He would have picked up every night at work and made wild passionate love to you. No, he wouldn't have done that, he respected you too much. With true love, you would have went to see him off when he left for Vietnam. Some people never find love, some dont know what it is, some dont want it. Then there are the ones who had it, and lost it. I had it and held on to it all of these years. I remember holding your hand, being with you, kissing you while listening to the Beatles, the Byrds and the Turtles. Thank you my dear high-school sweetheart for all the memories, the love and especially the mini-skirt (just kidding). You were and will always be the love of my life.