Once again my hopes and dreams have been smashed and ground into dust by the boot heel of life. Every time I think, "surely this will be the time things work out for us." But, nothing ever changes. We try so hard and each and every time we are snatched back from the brink of possible happiness into the black depths of despair.

We all had such high hopes for my middle son. The doctors told us when he was 4 or 5 years old that the Pervasive Developmental Disorder would keep him from living a normal life; it was likely that he would never finish high school and would be dependent on others for the rest of his life. But, not only did he finish high school, with honors, he graduated college, also with honors. It seemed they were wrong. Then, the panic attacks and anxiety attacks started a couple of years ago. That was closely followed by depression. He told me tonight that he was so tired of not being able to function like everyone else. His therapist and psychiatrist are doing all they can to help him. But, nothing seems to give more than a temporary reprieve. I just don't know where else to turn.

My youngest son, thank God, has a job and is, at this point, the sole breadwinner for the family. I have my Social Security which helps. But, we still cannot get our heads above water. It just pisses me off to no end when I hear about these so-called "celebrities" like the Kardashians who, through the luck of a sex tape and a large ass, have people throwing money at them. The amount it would take to put my family on solid ground again is probably less than one of those women spends on clothes in a couple of weeks.

If anyone should happen to stumble upon this, please send us your prayers.

Please help if you can.

My family and I are in a desperate situation. If anyone should happen to see my little blog, my sons and I would appreciate any donation you could make. Or, if you can't, please share our story with others. Thank you.

I guess it's a good thing that no one reads this blog. I'm sure they would think I'm suicidal. I'm not. My life is spiraling out of control and I don't know where to turn. I feel so helpless. I don't really have anyone to talk to thus the blog entries after such a long time. I've finally gotten to the point that I can't deal with much more.

I am so tired. I just can't take anymore. I'm tired of beating my head against a brick wall day after day after day after day. It never gets any better. I'm tired of beating my brains out trying to figure out how to pay the bills every month. I'm tired of struggling. I'm tired of people telling me to just go out and find a job. That's what I've been trying to do for the past 3 years!!! Unless you're unemployed you will never know what we face. I do have a part time job but it's just not enough to keep things going. I've had to put so much on my credit cards that they are nearly maxed out. I HATE doing that but it's the only way. I'm miserable. I feel like I've let my family down. I feel worthless. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm lost and I don't know if I can ever find my way back.

Ooh, girl, love the hair!

Papa on video

I didn't realize I had this until today. As far as I know it is the only video of Pops. It was taken on 4-22-06 when we had the cake for Andrew's and my birthday.

Father's Day...not so happy

I miss you, Pop.

Leopard at Pete's Pond 5-22-09

2 More Candidates for the Hang 'em High Club

Man Accused Of Sex Abuse Of Girl, 5

Abused Baby Dies; 18-Year-Old Charged With Homicide

Hannibal and Spooky "duke" it out

Another one of those crazy names...

KOVOCUS RONEZ

Some people should NOT be allowed to name their children without assistance

Another in the installment of strange names...

Bocephus (no, really)

Staccato Tahitian

In case anyone noticed...

I've been gone for a while! Hello, hello...(crickets chirping). Well, whether or not anyone reads my little blog, that won't stop me from posting eventually! HA!

Another candidate for the Hang 'em High Club

What could a 7 year old possibly do that would warrant his being beaten to death with a metal mop handle?

Easley father charged in death of 7-year-old son

Photo from WYFF4.com

Greenvilleonline.com
By Anna Simon
STAFF WRITER

EASLEY -- A 40-year-old man has been arrested in connection with the death of his 7-year-old son Friday at his home near Easley, according to the Anderson County Sheriff’s Department.

The boy was found dead at his home in by EMS workers who responded to a 9:30 a.m. call about a child in possible cardiac arrest, said Susann Griffin, spokeswoman for the Anderson County Sheriff’s Office.

James Theodore Dickerson Jr., 40, of 215 W. Church Road, was charged with one count of homicide by child abuse and one count of unlawful neglect of a child, according to arrest warrants.

The deceased child, Jeremy Wade Dickerson, was a first grader at Hunt Meadows Elementary School in Anderson County School District 1, said Anderson Deputy County Coroner Don McCown.

The boy suffered multiple injuries, McCown said, but declined to elaborate, saying the injuries would be documented by an autopsy Saturday.

When paramedics arrived at the mobile home on a country road outside Easley, they found the father on the phone with 911 and attempting CPR on the child who was in the father’s bedroom, McCown said.

The father said he had put the child in his bed because he wasn’t feeling well, McCown said.

According to the warrant the child was beaten with a metal mop handle.

A five-year-old boy, brother of the dead child, also had injuries and was removed from the home and placed in DSS custody, Griffin said.

Only the father and two boys lived in the mobile home, McCown said. The mother, who lives in Liberty, and the father are involved in a “bitter” custody dispute and the father had custody of the two boys, McCown said.

The mother went to see her sons Thursday and wanted to take them to her home for Thanksgiving dinner, but the father wouldn’t let her see them, McCown said. She spoke with the boys on the phone later that night, McCown said.

When the 5-year-old was taken from the home, he was worried about who would care for his cat, a gray tabby named RC, Griffin said. Animal Control was contacted to keep the cat safe, she said.

It wasn’t known Friday evening whether there were any prior indications of abuse, Griffin said.

From a number of academic awards in his room, the 7-year-old appeared to be a gifted, intelligent child, McCown said.

“It’s a very tragic event,” McCown said.

Hang 'em high

Normally I'm a peaceful kinda gal. Although, there are times when I think public hangings might not be such a bad idea. If this guy is guilty of this, he is a prime candidate:

WYFF News Greenville, SC

Greenville Man Accused Of Raping 5-Year-Old

Alleged Incidents Took Place Over Several Weeks

POSTED: 6:09 pm EST November 25, 2008

CHESTER, S.C. -- A Greenville man has been arrested after being accused of raping a 5-year-old girl.

The South Carolina Law Enforcement Division said Stephen E. Beasley, 32, is charged with first degree criminal sexual conduct with a minor.

According to the arrested warrant, Beasley raped the child at her Chester home between June 1 and July 11, 2008 while the child’s mother was at work.

SLED investigators say the child told her mother about the alleged abuse, and the mother called police.

Beasley was arrested in Greenville Tuesday. He is being held at the Chester County Detention Center.

SLED’s Pee Dee Agents and The Chester County Sheriff’s Office assisted with this investigation.
If convicted, Beasley could face up to 30 years in prison.

The WMDs have been found!!!

Some more odd names

(All names are either first or middle names, no last names)

Kesra Venun
Werbert
Zadgery
Carpentellis
Tremenous

Another beautiful poem from Rod McKuen

Photo from Mainetoday.com

THE MORNING OF MY LIFE
(from official Rod McKuen site)

The planting
of my new life
now begins.
Not starting over,
for this month
I'll be little more
than one year old
having had my birth
the night I fell down
in your arms last year
only to rise up
and fall back down again.

And so it is
the morning of my life.
Here I am,
naked, like a child man
open to you always.

In some other life
I started building
all I've built for you,
never knowing you
never knowing
it would be you.

The planting of my new life
now begins
and you will be the farmer
tending me till harvest.

- from "Calendar Poems, " 1968, 1988

Strange names

Being the strange person that I am, and being intrigued by strange names (see post below), I've decided to start a new category listing the strange names I come across in the news. I already have several doozies:

DEJONQUAVI

SHALONTEZ

TYRASSASSAZZION

Have you come across any stranger than this?

What kind of parent names their child "Wyatt Earp"?

It's sad that this man was shot, for whatever reason, and my condolences go out to the family. The suspected shooter's name intrigues me though...Wyatt Earp...what on earth would possess someone to name their child Wyatt Earp??? It takes all kinds, I guess.

Story courtesy Greenvilleonline.com

October 31, 2008

Authorities seek suspect in Greenville slaying

By Nathaniel Cary
STAFF WRITER

Authorities have named a suspect in the shooting death of a man Wednesday and are continuing to search for him this morning.

Wyatt Earp Harper, 51, of 33 Seventh St. Judson in Greenville, has been charged with murder, possession of a weapon during a violent crime and unlawful weapons possession in the death of Lonnie Bernard Oglesby, 53, of Anderson, who was shot in a yard at 114 A Taylor St. and later died Greenville Memorial Hospital.

Master Dep. Michael Hildebrand of the Greenville County Sheriff’s Office said investigators were able to "locate witnesses" who provided information in the case.

Hildebrand said they still had not determined a motive for the case, which happened between Greenville’s West End and Bon Secours St. Francis Hospital.

Investigators believe Harper is still in the area and should be considered armed and dangerous, Hildebrand said.

Anyone with information may call CrimeStoppers at 23-CRIME.